Then I remembered

It was then that I had remembered

Yes, the moment it all came back to me

The moment my heart had failed to beat

The moment the flame whithered away and died

It was in that moment--

That single moment--

I felt pitied

I felt useless

I felt alone,

Consumed by what I felt.

I had nothing left,

Nothing to hold on to

Sorrow had left my side,

In that moment

I knew it would not be enough

To say I needed help

It was in that moment

I felt the chilled silence

I had suffered an emotional lack

Of life and of love and of happiness

I felt pained,

Worthless,

Forbidden to ever love again,

Yes, that was the moment

That I had remembered death.