Invisibility I

The worst feeling in the world is loneliness

The loneliest feeling in the world is invisibility

Because no matter how much I talk

No matter how much I show myself

No one will notice, no one sees.

The hands of time pass by so slowly

Nothing works to show I am there.

The feelings are so hateful inside my mind--

Every day it happens over and over

I am sucked into the river, never able to get back out

Drowning in loneliness--

No matter how much I scream,

I'll still die because no one hears me.

No matter how much I try to swim to shore,

I sink farther and faster like a rock that no one sees or cares about.

No matter how much I try to live my life to the fullest

I am still dying on the inside.

I am torn apart by the rose thorns

I am marked by the scars no one sees--

They turn away when I enter into the room.

They look right through me as if I'm invisible--

I have let down my guard.

I stood strong covered by the armor that has suddenly uncovered me.

I feel naked behind my happy mask.

As I take it off I am shattered to pieces

I feel blind, unable to see my pain, unable to conquer my fears

The sword threatens to impale me with it's piercing blade

And kill me with the venom of a thousand times seven voices

Screaming at me to wake up

To wake up to reality

Which is my darkest nightmare

I can't get away from the darkness--

I have become the Angel of Death

They thought that I had been cured

But I had lied my whole life away

My heart slipped and is broke in ten million pieces

That will never repair

Because the pieces are too small to see.

My soul is vulnerable--

It has been dominated--

By hatred--

By dismay--

By loneliness--

And mostly by pain

I hate the curse of a thousand words

Telling me that I am invisible.