Book I
It was as if no one saw her, as if no one cared.
She didn't know they cared a lot more than she thought.
They didn't know what to do; they didn't know what to say
They never knew what she wanted--she kept all that to herself--
She kept everything to herself
She hardly ever spoke a word to anyone.
She kept so quiet that people wouldn't know she was there
She neither had any friends nor did she have enemies
No one liked her, no one hated her
She knew that.
She kept silent, moving through the hallways like a ghost
She had average grades so no one would notice--
They wondered if she had a secret, but she didn't say.
She was afraid that if she said something
That it would be too much information
So she kept quiet.
Book II
They didn't know what was going to happen
They didn't ask her--she wouldn't have given them an answer
She might have known, but she said nothing.
They wanted to know, they wanted to find out
She didn't want them to know, she didn't want to find out.
But she knew something was going to happen,
She could feel it inside of her,
She felt it pulsing through her veins--
The adrenaline rushed around like a twister.
She was quiet on her last day,
No one ever saw it, but she had just known it was her last day.
She stared into space because she didn't want to see anything
She tuned out the teachers because she didn't want to hear them
She was quiet, very quiet, on her last day.
She was jumpy, knowing at any second it was going to happen.
But she wasn't frightened at all because she knew it wouldn't be a bad thing.
Book III
When it happened she knew
When it happened nobody else noticed
She sat in the way back--
Just so no one would have to see her--
Or not see her.
Since she was invisible to the world anyway
It wouldn't have mattered
It was a loss that no one knew about
She felt nothing, no body parts--
nothing.
She felt light--so light
It was like landing on the moon
Weightless in thin air
It was like a door that won't open
Or one that does
And it goes to nowhere
She wasn't afraid.
She accepted it--she accepted all of it.
Book IV
Invisibility dominated her life
The bell rang and everyone left
Everyone except her
She wanted to make certain
She picked up her books and walked past the teacher
In the emptying hallways
The students neither turned towards her
Nor did they acknowledge her existence.
Why was that?
Is it because they didn't like her?
Maybe it was because they didn't think
That she knew they were there either
But she did--
She wanted them to know that--
She wanted them to know she actually did exist.
She wished so much that they didn't think
That she was invisible
Now she really was.
And it was all her fault.
