I Promised Myself

I promised myself I would not cry

When I found out you left me.

I promised myself I would not cry

But you still held the knife.

I promised myself I would not cry

When hands of time passed me by.

I promised myself I would not cry

But the weight hangs on my shoulders like lead.

I promised myself I would not cry

But it hurts too much to stop the pain.

I promised myself I would not cry

But I left and you left and we both left each other.

I promised myself I would not cry

When bloody tears of pain washed down my face.

I promised myself I would not cry

But the songs are like nightmares in my head.

I promised myself I would not cry

When burning words sear the page.

I promised myself I would not cry

But I drink from a pool of vanity.

I promised myself I would not cry

But the river of tears fills the world.

I promised myself I would not cry

But sorrows fall like rain.

I promised myself I would not cry

But I heard the silent song of the nightingale.

I promised myself I would not cry

But my tears fell anyway.